my date

charles is the only boy i'll be kissing at midnight.

hello kitty = drugs

see here

i love this blog.

"...I began to draw an invisible boundary between myself and other people. No matter who I was dealing with, I maintained a set distance, carefully monitoring the person's attitude so that they wouldn't get any closer. I didn't easily swallow what other people told me. My only passions were books and music. As you might guess, I led a lonely life."
                        -Murakami

i just want to scream

and pull my hair out

what's that?

a pretty cool coffee cup.

seatalk

Way up high
When you tell me not to cry
Did you understand I can't help it
Did you understand I don't have a choice

Do you wanna go
Do you really know
I don't ever stay awake for you
Do you wanna go
Do you really know
That I can't afford the truth

Sick
I'm sick honey
I don't, I don't got the money
Do you want a rain-check
'Cause I can't give you what you need
All by myself

Do you wanna go
Do you really know
I don't ever stay awake for you
Do you wanna go
Do you really know
That I can't afford the truth

Give me one more try
Before I fall apart, fall into the sky
I feel every inch, I feel it fold
Over myself, over you

Do you wanna go
Do you really know
I don't ever stay awake for you
Do you wanna go
Do you really know
That I can't afford the truth

I am bored

happy holidays

Christmas is finally over. I had the perfect relaxing day at my parents house. Consuming at least ten thousand calories, drinking numerous glasses of champagne, watching movies, and opening presents. Sometimes doing nothing is exhausting, because I came home and immediately passed out.

I got the cookbook I wanted so badly. I will be cooking every single recipe in it. Along with that I got some new kitchen utensils, including a soup ladle that I needed desperately...and a meat thermometer so I can finally learn how to make a roast. 

Also got some super dope Filson gloves, a scarf, candle, adorable photo of my dad and little sis, new lip gloss, favorite chocolate, money, etc.

Today I did a little thrifting (unsuccessful), returned videos, had my parents over to see my new house, and went to Kinokuniya for new notebooks, new pens in black and gold and thank you cards.

While transferring some recipes into one of my new notebooks (deemed only for recipes) I found this on a sheet a paper. Weird.

catching up

on ffffound

uggg

kitty christmas

people think the hello kitty thing is crazy. i get it. I'M WILD. it's nice that one girl at work understands and loves hello kitty things too...and korean food! coming in to work today to find a present from her made my morning. full of wonderful hello kitty gifts. i'm lucky.

classic recipes

interested in owning this.

false hopes, i'm sure

i tied a piece of gold ribbon to my wrist on monday. i haven't felt sick since. good luck perhaps? the 1983 world fair gold coin i keep in my wallet isn't good luck anymore. i believe i've cursed it. have i mentioned how much i just want to be happy, relaxed, stress free, and happy? i'm willing to believe in anything.

___not___getting___anywhere

today was a well spent day off. i woke up at eight am and was at southcenter by nine am. then back home by noon to make french dips...and pea salad for a christmas snack.

then it was off to buy dog food for my dear sweet pooch and to starbucks for a clover coffee (yum), some chocolate grahams, and a good old fashioned people watching session.

and finally to scarecrow video where i picked up four movies to help pass the holiday time over the next few days. there's something about this year that makes me dread the holiday. maybe it has something to do with the fact that spending holidays alone (without a partner in crime) just makes it a little less fun.

but i do like my wrapping paper this year.

and now i'm gonna lay around and eat potstickers and pop-tarts.

and dream about this YSL pressed powder that i must buy after the holidays.

it's oh so perfect.
goodnight. 

reservation for "a few"

This Sunday will indubitably be a day of decompressing, relaxing, cooking a little comfort food, and planning for my little New Years get together. It appears I won't be venturing out this year. I'd prefer not to deal with the crowded bars, screaming drunks, and ridiculously expensive bar tabs. It has been ages since I've had a enjoyable new years. In the past several years that I have gone out, it has been a miserable waste of time. I spent the last two years at home watching movies. This year I've got a cute new home (that still needs a lot of work...that won't be done by the time I have company over) and a handful of friends that are also content celebrating in the comfort of my new place with appetizers, champagne, and a wonderful view.

And if all else fails, we can go to the bar next door.

mighty murakami

if you read my blog on a regular basis you know that i love haruki murakami. today i am starting Sputnik Sweetheart. its been a long break and i'm ready to begin another of his delightful books. i was unimpressed with the extra large size of text (i'm not eight years old anymore) and it looks like it's double spaced (why?), but that's no reason to not read it. in fact those same qualities were the very ones i featured when i talked my friend into buying the book a few months ago. weird.

nude as the news

twenty ten almost killed me. i won't list all the shitty unfortunate events and changes that made twenty ten what it was, cos boo fucking hoo. most of the events were uncontrollable, but not all. i must take the blame for a couple. and sure there were plenty of good times too (perfect new apartment, job promotion, paid off student loan, good friends, a few new tattoos, my big sis getting engaged, a lot of good books, several adventures).  regardless of the good and the bad, i am ready for twenty eleven. and yeah, it's kind of silly to look forward to a new start just because it's a new year, but that's what's fun about a new year (besides the getting wild with your friends and making/breaking new years resolutions). but i need this.  i am ready for a fresh start, a clean slate. i'm ready to make wiser decisions, less mistakes. i'm ready to get well. i'm ready to relax, and let things be. i'm ready to move on, put this year behind me and wash my hands of it.

i know that not everything will go swimmingly in the new year. and that's ok. i'm not looking for perfection. i just want charles and i (and all those that i love and care for) to be happy and healthy. is that too much to ask?

 so here is to an improved...

 

all good things

would like to see this soon

slippery slopes

i don't know what's worse?

 

 the fact that someone tattooed my name(with a X thru it) on them

 or

that said person has to look at it for the rest of his life...

...or that said tattoo was received at the same time as "trust no bitch"

 

 

FOOD FOR THOUGHT I SUPPOSE

i'm not in love

i saw your picture hangin' on the back of my door
won't give you my heart
no one lives there anymore
and we were lovers
now we can't be friends
fascination ends
here we go again
cause it's cold outside, when you coming home
cause it's hot inside, isn't that enough

i'm not in love

could it be that time has taken it's toll
won't take you so far, i am in control
and we were lovers
now we can't be friends
fascination ends
here we go again
cause it's cold outside, when you coming home
cause it's hot inside, isn't that enough

i'm not in love
i'm not in love
i'm not in love
we are not in love
we are not in love
we are not in love
we are not in love

maybe i need a lobotomy

 do you actually listen to these songs i put up?

if you don't, you're missing out.

things i realized today

i love my new lace tights. 

i keep almost everything i need on one tiny table.

leaving a note is more fun than sending a text. 

i'm having a love affair with this.

  this was my first attempt at making blue cheese and onion stuffed homemade bacon burgers.

next time they'll be perfect. juicy!

and with no fries. or maybe sweet potato fries?

charles needs a pipe to smoke like this little shih tzu.

meg needs to hurry home. 

i need a B.L.T. from pastry cafe by the end of this weekend. 

new cat millions 2011

going kind of grunge in a good way

so fuck off.

yesterday was the

and it continued to carry into today and probably will many days after that.

new years resolutions

Rough Draft

become a good cook

learn to play the piano (i want to be in a band)

 what? it's just a start. 

PANIC PICNIC

i can't do anything tonight because i have to open again tomorrow.

so i'm going to scarecrow to drown my sorrows in movies that
I want to watch.

cool

my friends are watching this right now.

i should be there. 

but i'm not.

so...anyone want to go with me?

sunday.

brothers

 but deep down inside...charles hates him